Chocolate & time tight

Its funny, when a guy dont really love desert

but like to make chocolate

Half years ago i started to try make chocolate

in many way, from raw ingredient or redesign melted chocolate

i forgot whats the reason to start make chocolate... or dont want to remember

Or simply just to

Anyway

its my second success to make...

finally understand why chocolate wont freeze..

it make a lot easier to do...

but still take a lot of time..

it the process of making it is always fun.

but one thing really pain in the ass

that is to clean up the mess after i make the chocolate

here is the chocolate that had nicely mixed and made, now is current put on the ice water to

adjust the hardness for make it sphere shape

and here made in to ball shape, dont worry i wear glove while making all these,

it could have easier if i bought the surgery glove,-.- instead of using plastic one..

some chocolate bar that have melted in hot water, for the chocolate ball to dip in

and then put the coco powder

The coco powder is way too bitter, so i actually add some icing sugar in it for adjust the bitterness

tata, how its looks like after coating it with coco powder

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what's on top is almond coat with icing sugar...

it looks kinda weird -.-..

BUT

it look instantly better after warping... and warping actually took time

cz i am way too retarded.

Hmm thats it... i dont know how its taste though...

cz my thoart hurt, i never eat at of them -.-...

but hey... let the white mice be other people ahahahahahaha

my final exam is close, just middle of may...

and i need to finished up my final project... really pain the A double S

but my lecturer came and ask for my help... guessing i cant do my project

until 1st of may..

but hey i am vanx... i can mange ... xD

For this lifetime

When danger arrive,
I will come as sentinel;
protect and embrace.

When you took a wrong step and fell,
I will hold your hand;
and guide you back.

When there is war,
I will fight for you;
Till I bled dry.

When you have lost your faith.
I will give mine to you,
To believe once again.


When  you have lost your way out,
I will be there;

To show you a path

So don't you worry; my friend
As long I am here,
As long this friendship held.
As long this world haven't end.

But just one promise I asked;
just remember me for this lifetime

At last

i can hardly talk few days ago...
that picture is when the infection start
having about 5mm in diameter..
pain like hell,
but though its gonna heal up itself
never knws it getting bigger and bigger

not sure if you can see this clearly

it is when the ulcer at its almost biggest

i dint take the picture when its biggest though

its almost cover the whole section of it..

this stupid shit ulcer make me hard to talk

cant swallow any shit

make me hard to sleep

make me fed up

and almost going to kill myself.. oh wait

not that serious... but it is really fed me up..

recover back from potential breakbone fever then this ulcer came up

however...  I WON... and fuck you sickness...

terror

Been sick for 2 weeks
from start i thought it is a dengue
then end up not,
now i dont even know what the fuck is happening to me

there is a ulcer in my throat,
it dont heal up,
it just getting bigger and bigger
now almost having 1cm in diameter.

i am fed up... i am really fed up..
i cant eat, every single time i swallow it hurts
so much...
i am so hungry... i wanted to eat
but after few times i swallow, the pain is so unbearable
and that terror of watching myself getting skinnier, thinner.
and i am jealous of people, jealous that place i could have go
if i am not sick...

what's left?

talks a lot about old things lately
even with my old friend
pfft
do I really that miserable?
even my best friend point at me and said
actually this guy a lot of shit happen to me
then i remain silence for awhile,
and smile and said I am an optimist..
actually their saying wasn't about my whole life
just particular topic that we was talking.
but still, it had me thinking

When a people die,
what's left of him is only memory
of those people who know him
not even things he left,
because once people are gone, its no longer yours any more
what if even those memory are gone?
then what's left?

we all cannot be historical person
not all of us,
then aren't we just gonna wait to be
forgotten
wiped out.

烟

昨天跟家人去给爸爸行清
去广东义山的路上
塞满了车
妈总说选错日子
塞了一个钟才到
但是，到了那边
真的是人山人海
多人到喘不过气

找到位子拜爸爸时
已经是中午

还有...
我敢说每个在场的人都哭了
但是真哭的不懂有多少个
但每个人都被烟哭了
我也不例外
如果每个人需要呆在那边一天的话
眼科医生肯定是赚到满