Hard time

Sorry for the long gap between posting
had some hard time
felt like being isolating by friend
and
i wanted to find part time for myself
been tight on money these day
new semester starting soon,
lots need to pay
you may said why don't you get it
from your parents?
first my dad past away
and err
i don't even want to take a cent from my mum
not because i hate her, but i love her
i wanted to do it all myself
she worked hard
i don't want add more burden on her
and for my brothers?
yeah i could get from them,
but... see
i dont want to...
i grown up, i wanted to be independence..
but still
i seriously need a part time job
and now think off
i probably just finish out my diploma
then i will not continue my degree
and straight to work...
or probably i should just check if my grade
are acceptable ... at least i still got like 3.5 cgpa
lets hope it wont drop